Wednesday, Nov. 24, 2004 - 6:56 p.m.

I believe I should get off my stupid lazy butt and learn some html and css FAST. This page is starting to really annoy me, with all its unupdatedness. Grrr... must learn, while struggling with mountains of schoolwork! Ehh who am I kidding. I don't have mountains of schoolwork, but instead just this little assignment that has been bugging me for a while. And some tests. You have to admit that there are tests to do.

I have a serious issue to discuss while I'm ditching homework. [runs off to eat dinner and then comes back.] Okay, I am back. Now to continue.
So, at my math school, there's this person, Violet and her friends that are like a 'group' of their own. But there's also this other person that was part of their group for quite some time now... named Evelyn. See, Evelyn was accused by some person or another last year of making new friends that were not welcome in that 'group.' So, Evelyn's so called 'friends' started telling secrets about her, and spreading rumours about her behind her back. They did some pretty mean things, like trying to get more people to hate her and ditching her everytime she tries to follow them. But tell me, what's friggin wrong with making new friends? I mean, it's not like she had a plan to shave everyone's hair off when they were sleeping.
So, anyways, that was last year. This year, Evelyn is still hanging around Violet and her 'group.' They're really mean to her STILL. I mean, I don't know Evelyn very well, so I can't say she's the nicest person in the world, but I've been paying some serious attention and I know that she's a good friend. I missed a class, and she went up to me, just to give me the handouts that we had. And she didn't even have to! She's trying so hard to fit in, I'm afraid that one day they'll break her for sure. =( I sure don't want that to happen. So, I've been trying to ditch that stupid group. [I can't even call them friends. They don't have a clear mind. Not enough to be nice even to eachother!] Thing is, their 'leader' invites to me to places and I don't want to go. So I don't. But they still invite me. [Stupids. Can't take a hint.] So yeah. But what I'm feeling better about is that Evelyn really wasn't as clueless as I thought she was. Well, she hangs out with other people now, and I think she's much happier off without stupid Violet's group.

Violet's group consists of, not much people. They don't like to bring new friends along with them, probably afraid that another member of the group would think differently about them if the new friend is not 'cool' enough. Some members of Violet's group like to think I am part of them. But I'm really not, and I don't want to be. It sometimes has it's advantages, because not all the people in it are bad, and if they are, they have their reasons. Like Leila, for example. Although I don't know that much about her, I know that she has had a past without a mother and complete father figure. I guess she was missing sort of a mother-daughter thing. I can imagine that having no mother to care for is sort of sad. Especially if there was noone to teach you exactly what was right and what was wrong. In life.
Another member is just stinking rich. With money to spend, she doesn't have to worry about anything eh? Not even what people think eh? Actually, two members are stinking rich. Or was it three. I forgot, but I know that most of them are just trying too hard to be liked. Don't they know that if you want to be funny, you don't go dissing other people for entertainment? Don't you know, that you used to be funny, but you crossed the line from funny-haha to funny-oh-look-at-how-ugly-her-face-is? Straighten up! How do you expect to live a good life?

I'm not perfect. I'm probably the most imperfect of the imperfects, but you know what, I am not striving to be perfect. I just want to live my life. WITHOUT YOU BOTHERING ME. SO DON'T BOTHER ME, UNLESS IT IS TO AFTERNOON TEA.

Hmm. This is one long entry. Hey, waddaya know, it's time for my TV show. Next time! [btw I've moved my journal to another location, so I am not going to post as much here from now on.

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